Forbidden City

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by Gail Mazur

Asleep until noon, Im dreaming
we’vebeen granted another year.

You’re here with me, healthy.
Then, half-awake, the half-truth—

This is our last day. Life’s leaking
away again, and this time, we know it.

Dear body, I hold you pleading,
Don’t Leave! but I understand you

can’t say anything. Who are we?
Are we fictional? We don’t look

like our pictures, don’t look like
anyone I know. Daylight

flickers through a bamboo grove,
we approach the Forbidden City,

looking together for the Hall
of Fulfilling Original Wishes.

Time is the treasure, you tell me,
and the past is its hiding place.

I instruct our fictional children,
The past is the treasure, time

is its hiding place. If we told him
how much we love him, how much

we miss him, he could stay.
But now you’ve taken me back

to Luoyang, to the Garden of Solitary Joy,
over a thousand years old—

I wake, I hold your hand, you let me go.